I See You Mama!

Recently, I was giving my two toddlers a bath one morning. As I was bathing them, this took place:

Daughter: Mama, I love you. I hope I can be just like you when I grow up.

Me: (Blank stare)

I pulled myself together, smiled and told her that was sweet.

A few minutes later, as I was taking my son out of the tub, this happened:

Son: Mama, you’re so beautiful.

Me: (Stunned again)

I told him thank you and continued with our morning routine. As I physically offered my usual assistance with getting them dressed, I was mentally trying to process and even accept what just happened.

I continued to ponder what made them say these words. It seemed really random. They rarely blurt out words of such admiration and affection during bath time. Yes, they are affectionate children and we celebrate each other often, but it just seemed a bit strange.

I wondered if maybe they sensed something was going on with me. I was actually feeling a bit irritated at the moment. Quite a few thoughts were going through my mind about life at home and feeling like things needed to be a bit more 50/50 with housework.

Was it written all over my face? I didn’t think I was showing it. Even as small children, ages 3 and 5, was that their way of trying to make Mama feel better.

My children amaze me. I almost kind of hate I may have been exuding this kind of energy. I don’t want them to feel responsible for making me feel better if they sense something is wrong.

On the other hand, could it have been, as some say, the Universe speaking. Was it a sign from above? Maybe so. I had spent some time praying a few hours earlier while everyone was still sleep. Around 3 a.m. my heart was heavy and I read about being grateful then fell back asleep. Was this my reminder?

If you’re reading this now, I would like to say those same words to you Mama.

You are beautiful and there is someone out there who sees your beauty. You are seen. You are admired–even to the point that someone else sees the beauty in you and wants to emulate some aspect of who you are.

Don’t Give Up. Hold your head up today and take a moment to smile. Think of something to be grateful for. There is always something to be thankful for.